It can be difficult to put your feelings into words
I went into the Forces at 17, and having kids was the last thing on my mind.
But life happens and now I've got a beautiful baby son. I'd do anything for him, and it kills me that every time I go on tour I might not make it back - not being depressing, it's a reality of life I've faced.
So I've put my last wishes into my Nutshell and also left soppy messages to my girlfriend and my mates and my Mum, and especially for my boy, so that he'll have a permanent record of me, my life, and how much he means to me.
It's easy to think you'll live forever when you're young.
But now we have a growing family, we realise it's vital to put our affairs in order; if one of us is taken ill, the other will know where everything is and what to do.
But my grandchildren have been interviewing me on their phones and on video, and now they've recorded my memories in a Nutshell - I can't wait to see it.
Lots of things are hard to talk about - at any age.
But now we've recorded our last wishes we can get on with enjoying retirement together, knowing that those left behind will have greater peace of mind.
